I’m nervous, obviously super excited I’m gonna meet my little princess soon but I’ve gotta think about labour, everything is unpredictable you don’t know what your gonna get that the whole surprise of birth
Previous labour and birth, felt like a complete shambles tbh, long story short had preeclampsia, dangerous high blood pressure levels that nearly had my life, Ethan was born via emergency c section and rushed to resuscitation didn’t see my baby until 12hrs later, NICU, 7 Days hospital stay. Pretty Shit and traumatic, so looking to avoid a story similar to this one
Another c section is not ideal for me mentally and I’m ready for that but if it’s to save both mine and baby’s life, I’d do it again in a blink, plus the hospital is 3mins away from my house which is also a bonus
VBAC (Vagina Birth After Caesarian)
So in my heart and mind I want a VBAC I am going to try my hardest for a VBAC, I believe in myself and my body and baby that we’ve got this and we will achieve that VBAC
Some people may think I’m crazy but I want to feel that ring of fire feeling, I want to feel those powerful surges that will help my baby into this world, I want to cry, breathe and labour and feel all the emotions that’s gonna test me when my time comes, I want to feel empowered.
I’ve come to a point where I want to have a Home Birth, I am so terrified of going to the hospital I associate myself with everything going wrong the moment I enter and I might as well line up and prepare for a c section because that’s what’s gonna be “best” for me and my baby, the level of anxiety is unexplainable that I will have no control that’s what I’m most scared of.
I had an appointment with the obstetrician, I left the appointment pretty sad and demotivated that It would be unlikely I’d get the kinda labour I’d like in hospital as I’d like to be as active as possible not be constantly monitored laying on the bed and on a drip as soon as I arrive as I’m a high risk pregnancy, and he was so optimistic about a repeat c section as “avoids pains of labour” I’ll attach the note so you could see for yourself
I have done non stop reading, watching videos educating myself on the pros and cons of VBAC, I agree the safest place for me to birth my child is the hospital due to my previous pregnancy, but if I can make it to term and my baby girl is a healthy weight and I don’t have preeclampsia again or blood pressure issues I don’t see why not stay calm at home where I feel safe and trust my Midwife’s, my partner and most importantly myself
At the beginning of my pregnancy I was so scared, I was ready to just accept an elective c section as I was positive my pregnancy would be the same as before and I would develop preeclampsia again or something would go wrong but every urine sample, blood test, blood pressure readings, scans and baby girls active movements is showing this is a very different pregnancy a surprisingly healthy one, this is what gave me hope
Don’t get me wrong I know when something ain’t right as I knew with Ethan but Midwife’s and nurses didn’t listen to me until it was nearly too late, but me and Ethan defied the odds and both overcome a traumatic birth. So I know when hospital would be the best place for me
I’ve done a bit of a birth plan with the midwife already but will have an update at my 36 week final Scan and my meeting with a woman who is the main lady to talk to about VBAC’s and what my main action plan would look like
Any other Mums tried for a VBAC any tips or links or websites I should have a look at or even VBAC birth stories I’d love to have a read.
Adama x
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