Did someone say baby number 2

I’ve pretty much always been broody for as long as I could remember, I absolutely love babies especially newborns and when they get to that cute chubby grown into their face stage.

I was unsure of posting, but it’s a massive life event I’d like to talk about…

Me and my partner have decided we would like to try for a baby, this is music to my ears as I’d love to have a little sibling for our son. Plus I wonder what beautiful creation we would make. This is the most amazing feeling knowing I’m planning for a baby I feel ready for and my partner feels exactly the same.

This is not as easy as I thought it would be, I stopped using the Depo Vera injection contraception in Dec 16 after this my periods were absent for 7 Months, these months practically killed me mentally and emotionally, I thought about it every day of my life till the day it came back Aug 17 (best day of my life screaming/crying in the toilets of Odeon cinema in hysterics before watching Girls Trip).

I’m basically the girl that used 100 pregnancy tests in 7 Months haha, I honestly thought I was pregnant every single month without fail, I had the nausea, extreme bloating, name any other pregnancy symptoms, I had it all. I felt really sorry for my partner as I’d take him on the horrible rollercoaster of feelings and being disappointed, confused and sad when there was still no sign of anything.

But I always looked at it in a positive manner, meaning now is not the time, I didn’t let the disappointment consume me, I’ve got plenty of time and these things take time. 

The GP did a scan and blood tests every seemed normal basically nothing was wrong with me, I just had to play the waiting game till it came back on it’s own naturally, you name it supplement wise, I took it I finished the bottle nothing worked, I felt like I was broken and never gonna have another baby, my mind drove me crazy.

I believe it was down to stress, my diet and my mental state as my hormones were just all over the place, I was really feeling the depression and anxiety these times, didn’t want to see anyone, speak to anyone, just stay by myself or with family and figure out what the hell was wrong with me. I literally gave up, why is it when you give up what ever you wanted works out hahaha, just my luck. I am going to stay positive, keep up at the workouts, drinking water like my life depends on it and basically give up eating out and take away (I’ll save some pennies too).

Now that my period is back, it’s back with a vengeance, heaviest flow of my life, so I’m currently trying to manage it, I seem to have some sort of cycle now to follow as I’ve had 3 months of a good record, so downloaded a few apps to help track my ovulation and let me know the deal. Going to get prenatal supplements for both me & my partner and fingers crossed from here on out.

Adama x